Even innocuous or seemingly good things like friends and family would become idols if they stopped me from fully worshipping God. Full surrender can’t happen later or when I feel ready, it needs to be now or not at all.
I didn’t expect to be paid by the church for my time, and perhaps, in return, there was an unspoken agreement that the church would not have expectations of me. I would go on contributing as my schedule allowed, popping in to surprise the church staff with some extra hands when inspired.
I think I want to do meaningful work. “Kingdom work” that worships God, advances the gospel, loves the church, and ministers to others is eternally meaningful. But am I too afraid of failure to actually give it my all?
A few weeks after we began the cohort, I was asked to help with leading the support-raising effort. Hey, this was a good opportunity to get us all together to make a video! But this came with a challenge as we were all remote and each student would have to film themselves from their own location. On top of that, how are we all going to get a consistent and decent composition, lighting, and audio?
Christian missions has always been my mind since the first person in our family heard about Jesus from a missionary from the UK. My great-grandparents were very sincere Buddhists, but Buddha did not save their firstborn grandchild. Therefore, they started to look for a real god. After they heard the gospel from that British missionary, they witnessed many miracles and thus found that Jesus is the real God.